Broken as they call it

I am so grateful that I have to face few heart-broken moments in my life, at the early age.

It’s like some kind on prep, to face the days when things are so much serious and responsibilities are so much bigger.

There are things that I will never imagine could ever happen, happened. There are things that I usually heard the story or even watched it on TV, happened.

And when it does happened, it opens my eyes that I’m not the only one. And there are loads more other people who face tougher challenge.

I’m grateful that God took something that I once think I’m not gonna lose it. I’m grateful that God teach me that it’s ok to love now, but know that nothing is ours in this life. Never ever think that. I’m grateful that God teach me it’s ok to put on hope, but never on the creation. It have to be always on The Creator, Allah s.w.t.

To know the fact that everything happened with Allah’s consent, and to realize our purpose in this life is only to serve Allah, helps a lot in overcoming heart-broken.

..and actually forgive, who ever has hurt us. Because it’s not their fault. Things has written to be that way.

and pray..and have loads of patience.. because Allah has teach us that… and Alhamdulillah I see it right before my eyes that sometimes all we need to do is pray and be patience..

And seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah ]. (2:45)

All we need to do is to just learn from what has happened and move on. And pray for each other happiness..


Turning 25

All praise to Allah, it was sweet.

Like real sweet.

I had one of the best birthday last year. It was Aidiladha, I was at Bali, there was early present, more present after that and birthday song by the beach at Jimbaran…

So I thought maybe this year it’s gonna be BBMs and texts from the girls and ordinary day at work with birthday email and maybe some facebook post and that was it.

But it wasn’t.

It started with all the girls went to sleep before 12am.




OMG these girls can’t even wait even it’s my birthday night pfft.

Hehe no lah. They know they won’t be able to stay up until 12am to wish my birthday (apa lah nasib dapat kawan self delusional macam aku hehe) so they threw a surprise birthday dinner, 4 days earlier!


So sweet lah. Cannot wait to see me grow older.

Muka excited tak dapat dibendung.

I actually has drafted lengthy post on the surprise it self but then after today I decided…no need lah.. Biar tersemat di hati aja! Ewah.

But no word could describe how touched I am with every single thing. I love how they paid attention on every single little thing. From the timing, the venue, the food, the cake, the card. Too sweet. Thanks girls.

Then there were sweet call, hugs from mom in the morning, wish from dad, sweet emails & wishes from colleagues & friends and more birthday cake from colleague!

Oh, Mia pun treat me early birthday cakes over last weekend.

And I’m gonna have more cakes over this weekend from the family, insyaAllah!


Banyak gila cake. Nak harijadi hari² la macam nii. Hehe.

It was all good.

Allah hu Rabbi. All praise to him. It’s more than enough. I feel so so grateful and happy.