Multitasking..

..is only fun when you actually got to handle it all, well.

How was your weekend? (Soalan cliche hari Isnin selain status Monday blues)

Mine was…satisfying! Let me bore you with the details.

I went back early on Friday to bring my cousins for a swimming session. I was a bit moody at the first place because there’s so much things to do and I hate the feeling because it just show that I have become more and more selfish each day and start neglecting the family and become work slave.

Poyo sangat Ya Allah bencii diri sendiri.

But as soon as I met them, arrive at the pool and join them swimming, all those worries go away. I’m relieved. I am so relieved that I made that decision instead of spending another Friday night at the office.

But then on Saturday I still have to go to work because yeah it’s unavoidable. I have to go and settle all the things I have to settle. Aku actually plan nak pergi pagi tapi malam tu tiba² auntie ask me to bring her for some grocery shopping. So noon only I reach office and went back after Maghrib. Who am I kidding kan? Of course la kerja aku tak siap hehe so aku bawak balik rumah lahhh and plan to do it on Sunday.

So on Saturday night, I spent it watching TV with the family and wrapping up my HIMYM season 5. Heehe happyyyy.

So come Sunday.

Mom received a call from uncle at Ipoh saying that Opah is admitted to the hospital. I want to follow mom. But I also have this thing that I have to settle on Sunday by hook or by crook. Kalau tak memang habis la kena panggang hariniii. Tapiii. Tapiii setelah berfikir, ahhhhhhh, malam aku buat. Aku dah lama gila tak jumpa Opah dah la kesian dia masuk hospital.

So off we went to Ipoh. Arrived there at 4pm,visit Opah and went back. And reached home at 11pm macam tuu.

Jadii hidup harus diteruskan. Once I reach home I start with my works and manage to get it partly done sampai pukul 1am. Aku tidur je lepas tu sebab kalau tak komfem harini masuk pukul 10am dan kena panggang jugakk. And continue the balance at the office today.

Ok, motif entry ini bukan lah nak memoyo cakap aku ni buat home work ke apaaaa. Ohh tidakkk. Tu mintak pelempang namanyaa.

Motif nya adalah nak cakap, it’s us who control the time. A friend of mine keep telling me ‘we have to MAKE time’ every time I told him I don’t have enough time. Eh banyak nya time. But yeah I guess it’s true. It’s us. It’s us who determine we heve enough time or not..

 

Tapi aku macam happy and satisfied weekend ni sebab dapat spend masa dengan family and at the same time tak berasa sakit otak memikirkan kerja yang tak siap² tuuuu. Sebab selalunya macam tuuuu okk. Pergi office sakit otak, duduh rumah, Isnin pulak sakit otak. Isk.

Tapinya kan, no matter how we want to chase our dream, no matter how hard we want to work I think there are 2 things that we shouldn’t leave behind. Our health and family.

Aku dah dapat balasan  sebab mengabaikan aku punya rehat dan kesihatan. Jadi jangan lah kau buat perangai lagi sampai kau hilang family jugak ye Pelah oii.

Ok, noteddd.

At some point I do wonder, is this the right move? Is thisssss?? Tapi sampai sekarang, I still don’t have the answers but I will always pray so that Allah will show me the right path and wake me up bila aku lupa diri… Sebab tu lah benda yang paling aku takut sekali.. Ada orang kata dekat aku kadang² kita kena langgar dinding dulu baru kita tau jalan tu betul ke tak. Tapi macam mana kalau by the time langgarm kepala pun dah hancur otak pun dah berkecai dan tak boleh pakai lagi?

 

Kan naya. Hmm. Jadi mungkin kena jalan jangan laju sangat, tengok kiri kanan, so in case langgar pun, tak lah severe sangat. Kan?

Apa punya mimpi lah

 

Malam tadi, adalah rekod tidur yang paling indah. Sebelum tido makan ubat batuk, panadol flu, pakai rejuvenating mask (konon²) and next thing I know, terus knock out gila².

 

But when I woke up, tiba² terperasan. Apesal macam mimpi ex boifren ni?!

 

Sheeeeessshhh spoil okkkkk.

 

Aku mimpi aku pergi jumpa dia (aku pun tatau apesal aku pergi jumpa dia) and everything was so fine until on our way back. I was driving and he said something that made me angry and I started to tell him all over again why we broke up and how his act is the reason why we broke up and how I’m glad that it happen blaa blaa blaaaa. Gila mean Ya Allahhhh.

 

Lepas tu tiba² dia pun meluahkan perasaan cakap he has done everything for me and how I keep complaining tak puas hati apa semua. And how he has sacrifice so many things tapi aku still rasa tak cukup. Lepas tu dia turun kereta lepas tu siap hempas pintu lagi.

 

-________________________-”

 

Seriously? *talking to my self*

 

Yang buat tak boleh blah nya, all the things that he said actually made me feel guilty dan lepas tu aku telah drive around untuk mencarik dia. Tapi lepas tu tiba² mimpi habis.

 

Persoalan nya sekarang, kenapa dikala aku memerlukan tidur yang indah, aku kena buat drama hindustan pulak ni?!

 

Hisshhh dah lah itu je nak cerita. I just have to share it sebab it’s so vivid in my mind until now.