When will it be?

And high up above or down below,
When you’re too in love to let it go,
But if you never try you’ll never know,
Just what you’re worth…

Fix You, Coldplay
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Sedaaap dan hati gembira

Attend a friend’s wedding today. Ye tetiap bulan ye ada orang kawin.

 

Most of my best friends are already married and I am so so so happy seeing now they’re in a very good hand. Semua suami mendapat kelulusan aku. Hehe macammm la dorang kesah ke tak kan aku lulus ke tak?

 

Tapi, wouldn’t you feel so happy tengok ada 1 lelaki baik yang jaga kawan2 korang? Macam eeii bestnyaa.

 

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Congrats girls!!!

 

Eh tapi harini nak cakap pasal wedding Mai. I just love the wedding. It’s a very simple wedding with lovely people all around but everything was so beautiful. Dan yang paling penting, makanan adalah sangaaattt sedap. Aku rasa diorang masak sendiri lah sebab aku nampak ada awek tu angkat beras.

Lauk2 nya ialah ayam masak merah, sambal udang, sambal goreng (yang tempe campur suhun suma tu), sambal tempe ngan kacang, dalca and rendang daging. Isk. Taip pun dah rasa lapaarrr. Sedaap okkkk.

Lepas tu, classic sangat tau. Atas meja ada kerepek, rempeyek dan jug air and it’s CONSTANTLY refill. Like seriously. Tengah aku borak2 tu kejap2 ada brother isi air. Entah bila muncul entahhh.

 

Bagus sangaat! You see, sometimes, this is what missing in a wedding. sometimes they put their eyes on the tiniest detail contoh nya warna reben yang nak ikat dekat tiang khemah ni matching tak dengan warna err brooch dekat baju. Tapi tetiba ayam tak cukup.

 

No, don’t get me wrong. Standard la pengantin mesti lah nak macam tu. Kalau aku kawin pun aku nak suma perfect. It just that we should know the priority. Food should always be the priority. Kita nak jamu orang kan. lagi2 when it comes to kenduri, kadang2 orang datang jauh2, sesat barat (eh tu aku hehe) berpeluh2, redah jam tapi sampai2 makanan tak cukup. Frust lah jugak kannn.

 

Ohh, dan lagi satu. I just love love love Mai’s dress. So simple and yet soooo stunning! Ditambah pulak dengan badan dia yang slim tu dan muka yang berseri2.

 

aaa dan juga, bukan aku sorang ok cakap lauk dia sedap. Gambar dibawah sebagai bukti. Hehe.

 

kan dah cakappp. Hehe.

The power of love..

I had a HUGE crush with Tiz¬†Zaqyah¬†that I just HAVE to watch¬†Nur Kasih¬†The Movie at cinema. People will go like ‘alar nanti¬†mesti¬†keluar¬†Astro¬†First’ Oh nooo. I secretly wish that this movie doesn’t go out on Astro First because all of us know what it means if it does.

Oh well to cut the story short, I manage to watch it yesterday!

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Dan keluar wayang dengan sakit kepala sebab tak pernah pulak tengok wayang sampai 3-4 kali menangis. There are loads of sad scenes sampai aku pun pening kepala dan tak berhenti frowning but throughout the whole movie, I keep thinking of this one thing. Hebat nya kuasa cinta, dan, does it still exist?

Hebatnya kuasa cinta Adam pada Nur Amina sampai sanggup meredah ribut padang pasir. Yes, hebat. But lemme tell all of you guys out there, showing your love does not necessarily be that way. Tak payahhh, tak payah redah letupan gunung berapi ke apa nak tunjuk cinta sejati.

Cukup¬†dengan¬†be a man, show your responsibilities and be a great family man. Kalau¬†nak¬†berkorban, korbankan¬†masa yang sepatutnya¬†pergi¬†ber suka¬†ria¬†dengan¬†kawan2¬†and instead spend your time dengan¬†anak¬†and isteri. Kalau¬†nak¬†tunjuk¬†cinta¬†sejati, show it with your guidance to the right path and way so that the family will gain Allah’s bless.

Kalau nak jadi macho, jadi lah dengan imam kan solat ahli keluarga. Kalau nak jadi wise man, show it with making the right decision with all the consideration dan bukan penting kan kepentingan sendiri je.

It is never easy to be a man. Afterall that’s the whole reason why a wife have to obey her husband. Even more than her mother, who gave birth.

Just….be a man. That is all we need. At least, that is all I need.

Why lah?

Some people are just too caring and concern about me!

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I should be happy, right? The fact that some people willing to spend their time to think of my future and how it’s going to be like. Where yours truly here just sit, work and pray that she will stay happy, have food on the table, bed to lie on, parents and family to be healthy and blessed, friends to be happy and the world to be better!

Oh, well. That’s all I need. That’s all I want.

In case you ever wonder, what makes me happy.

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Ok lah, to be realistic, maybe a pair of Gucci will be nice too.

Not worth it

Something happen the other day that made me kinda upset with erm..my…err..ex.

I’m upset up to the point that I don’t want to see anything that’s related to him. Bitter gila, kau apahal? Haihhh. I don’t know lahh. But one of the things that need to get discarded is my wallet. That day, I was so determine that I want to buy a new one which so unlike me.

Ye lah aku kan kedekut, selagi ada benda tu dalam rumahhh, memang tak laa aku nak beli baru. Tapi ni hasutan syaitan punya pasall,sangguppp tu. Jadi hari ini semangat lah pergi carik wallet baru. Agaknya Tuhan tu nak cakap ‘sudah2 la tuuuuuu Fadilah Harun oiii’ sebab jalan2 semua pun ala2 tak berkenan.

Sampaaaiii la jumpa 1 yang berkenan, and I’m thissssssss close to buy it, all of sudden there’s a thought popping into my mind ‘why one earth I want to waste my money, for him?!’

Heck, my wallet is still nice!!!! There’s nothing wrong with it! Why I want to make him waste my money?!

Nooooooo. Thank God the thought came, I didn’t buy any wallet. Nasib awek cun tak buat muka sebab aku dah punggah 18 wallet dia. Hihi. Bagus dik, boleh maju dan berjaya attitude gitu!

Tapi nafsu menshopping masih ada (which trust me, doesn’t come often) and lucky me I found 1 (quite) nice, comfy and cheap wedges! Yeah. I’ve been wearing flats to work lately sebab errr adalah beberapa sebab kan and seriously I’m not happy with it.

Sebab;

  • Tumit aku sakittttt laaa pakai flaattt.
  • Rasa macam frumpy sangat. Dah la memang tak berapa nak bergaya vogue da vasss pergi kerja, kasut pulakk macam tu.
  • Mesin photostat jadi tinggi.-____-“
  • Dihina seperti ‘OMG you’re so short!!! Never knew you’re this short!” Rude people, those guys. -_________________-“

So yeah. After this those things won’t happen again! ūüėÄ

Oh yeeee, sementara misi mencari wallet tadi, aku telah terjatuh cinta dengan ini;

Jam Rebenn

 
Caannnttikkk laaa. Siap buat muka yakin ada duit, try lagi. Bila pakai, nampak rebennn je. Hiihihihi. Lepas tu, akak salesgirl tu kata, Selasa ni ada member’s sale dekat Robinson jadi jam itu akan ada discount!
 
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Tapiiii, kalau beliii, bulan depan nak isi minyak dengan apa?
 
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Make It Easy

I realized recently that one of the thing that I always asked from Allah since I can’t remember when is to have an easy life. I always asked that.

Few weeks ago, somebody gave me a hint of how much I will receive my increament this year. They haven’t made it official yet, but I roughly know how much mine will be. And few days ago I heard of few conversations of how the other colleague wonder, will there be increament this year, will there be bonus because they havn’t announce anything yet, officially. All of sudden I stood there, and realized, when most of them wonder will there be increament or not, I already know how much I’ll be getting. It hit me hard because when I first receive the news I’m not happy and complain that I deserve more. And I feel so guilty after that for not being grateful for what Allah has gave me. Bosses are just some kind of perantara. The money, is from Allah.

From there, as I recap what has happen to me all these years one by one, I realize, Allah has actually made it easier for me.

I always get what I want. What I secretly want, things that I didn’t tell anyone how bad I want them, it always end up I got it.

There’s this time, I was 16, just started for 4 and can’t stand any minute in that school. I just want to move out. So I applied for a technical school. Apart from there’s no course that suits me in the current school where I’m in, I just want to move out due to other reasons also. And I got in..

Then when I finish school. I was 18 and not really sure what I want to be. But all I know is, I want to start working early which is mean, I don’t want to spend too many years in uni. So, although I’m considering matriculation and diploma at that time, deeeeeep inside my heart, I want to do matriculation. And I got in. And it’s only at Tangkak, soooo near with my house. Which is also what I want. Hehe budak mengada memang macam tu.

When I finish matrics, I’m still clueless of what kind of job I’m gonna do for the next 3 years. So all I know is, I want a 3 years course, tak jauh and of course lah what I have interest it. Kalau bagi aku 3 tahun, sebelah rumah, tapi medic pun harammmmmm lah mak taknakkk. Tak sanggupppppp. Eiii scaryy. Cewah, scary konon. Macam lah layak amik medic punnnn. Heehehehe. So yeah, I applied for QS at UiTM Shah Alam because the only place that offered degree in QS is UiTM Shah Alam ONLY. Heeeee. And also yeah I actually have interest in QS and that is where my passion is, until now. Sooo yeah, I got in.

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You see, it’s all soooo easy. No drama what so ever. What I want, that’s what I get. Oh God so bersyukur!

So after I finish my degree, as much as I love staying at home lazying around, I kinda desperately need a job. I need money. There are issues that time that need me to start working pronto. So after a week bermalas2 (masihhhhh jugak tu), I started applied for jobs. I apply few through internet and it didn’t work out. Then one day, decided to try newspaper. It’s on¬†Tuesday I still remember it. Saw this one advertisement, sent a hopefull email and few hours later, got a call for interview on the next day it self. I was thrilled and nervous since it’s my first interview!

So I went to the interview and spent 20 minutes listening to my boss braging about how gooood this company is as if it’s multinational company or something. Haha. Padahaaaallll, office dekat shop lot je. -______-” Buttt, buutttt, I’m actually sold. When I stepped out of the room, I’m like, ‘Damnnn I want this job!!! BADLY!’ It look so interesting and okay, let me just confess. I want the job because I’m amazed of the interviewer, which is the boss laaa. Boleh? I’m like, this guy is soooo cool I wanna work hereeee! OMG pls lah he don’t read this. Hihi.

And yeah.. the next day, I got a call say that I’m accepted and I actually started working on the next Monday!

So, you see. How Allah has actually made my life easier without me realizing it and yet, still complains and what’s worst, rarely made an effort to be a good servant.. That is what happen in life… we’re just too busy looking at what we don’t have rather than what we already have…

I just want to be a better person. A good servant which I shamelessly have to admit I am not, now… But I’m tying. Each day, I try to be a good servant, good daughther, good worker, good sister and a good friend…

Let’s just pray I’ll keep my feet rooted and the hidayah, is always with me…

You know, they say Allah test us in two ways. By giving us the luxury of everything that we can think of and by giving us hardship..

And the test of having all the luxury in the world is actually harder that hardship… because when we face problems, we will start to look for him.. But when we’re fine, we tend to forget him..

I’m not trying to preech or anything I hope you guys don’t get me wrong.. I treat this blog as a medium for me to convey what’s inside mymind and even my heart… It is as a reminder for my self also, that how I should be grateful of what I have now because seriously, Allah can take back anything from us, anytime..

Been there, done that..

Grateful Baby

I hope when I talk, blog or tweet, I don’t sound like a brag woman or I sound like I’m so ungrateful. I hope the next time I want to complain I will sit, think and re-visit my self before I made the complain.

becauseeeeee, berlagak people do annoyed me like hell.

period.