Funny Lah

Since I wrote about ignoring so-called friend in my previous entry, I think today I want to write about another story that have similar profile.


Of ignoring a so-called friend. Well he’s not really a friend. He’s more like acquittance to me and a friend to my ex-boyfriend.


I remember that time, I was chatting with him and telling him about my recent break-up with my ex (which is his friend). He was checking how I was doing and all. And he asked,


Him : Are you ok? Dah jumpa pengganti?


Ok, when you’re in a mess and telling someone about how sad you are loosing your loved one, the only interpretation that you can make when he said pengganti is a new boyfriend, no? Well at least that is how it sound, to me. So I told him,


Me : Pengganti?? It has only been few days!!


Then all of sudden he replied,


Him : Pengganti tak semestinya kena lelaki lain. It could be Al-Quran ke, Sejadah ke.


The moment I read that, I seriously feel like, apahaaall mamat ni kan??????


Ok, you see. Not that I’m denying what he’s saying. I know what is he trying to say and convey. But:


  1. Sapalah kau nak sound² macam tu? And do you have any idea actually what is on my mind?
  2. Kena bagitau semua orang ke whenever I turn to Him to mengadu and all?
  3. And since when He have to be pengganti? Why I have to ganti The Almighty only when I feel sad walhal, oh please. We all know how it should be.


What pissed me off is, why on earth he want to judge me like that?? And what makes me feel like giving him one sarcasm smirk if he happen to be in front of me also because I know your history, man. Please la. Perlu ke aku cerita sambil meriak²? Tak paham aku.


Ni lagi satu lelaki yang aku menyampah. Alim² kucing as you said it. Wahhh bila time nasihaaattt, boleh tulis 1 buku. Tapi when it comes to the truth or to actually practice, naan adooo. This is based on living proof ok. Ok, aku tak kesah lah kau macam mana pun kan. But can you talk and at the same time portray your true self. We are not perfect ok. Just be your self. Tak payah lah nak cakap berapi² macam nak produce kitab where both of us know the truth.


I’m not 10 year old girl kau nak goreng² sebegitu.


You know..

  • Some people they think they’re too nice and too good that they forget that there are other people hearts that need to be taken care of.
  • Sometime you just have to let down your ego and come back to where you should come back. And you should able to differentiate the person that will stand by you no matter how hard you fall, or screw up.
  • Sometime you just need to be super selfish and smack all those stupid person right on their face.
  • I think now I know how I acted when I have to be bitchy. I walk away. Walk away and erase the particular person from my braincell and my life. No wonder I have so little friends. But that small amount is the one that can really make me happy and I just can’t afford to talk anything bad about them. Now I know why when a friend told me about a girl that is trying to messed up with her, I cannot remember when is the last time I have to deal with this kind of problem. It’s because I always walk away from that kind of stuff. I’m a lazy person. I just couldn’t care less about all those nonsense.
  • It is just funny to see how some people can’t act like his age. Like seriously? I’m glad I made the decision. Well yeah, call me the bad one. I’m fine with it.


Hav you ever been into a situation where you just don’t know how to handle the issue and it’s stuck in your chest and you know you need to let it out because it’s been killing you but you don’t know how to let it out, so all you feel is numb and you just sit there, doing nothing and wait for miracle to come.

But the thing is, clock is ticking and you have to decide eventually but you just can’t afford to think straight and make a decision with another party does not contributing to the solution, with what’s in your heart say, with whats in you mind wants you to do. It buggers you like hell, and yet you still can’t decide.

Have you?

Well i’m in that situation now. I’m just in the middle of the road, and I have to decide which path I want to take. And I can’t decide alone. I can’t.